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Out of My Mind

jean — Wed, 28 Dec 2011 15:49:05 -0600

Out of My Mind

The other day I decided to soak my tired snow-shoveling muscles (yes, there’s already snow here) in a nice hot bath before bed. Settling in to the water, I was thinking about how Adamus said a while back that “I will celebrate with you, I will dance and drink with you till the early morning hours, when you stop thinking.” “So,” I said out loud, “Are you gonna show up tonight?” The reply was immediate. “If you actually stop thinking, I will most definitely show myself to you,” he said. “But you won’t recognize me.” Oh really…?

So… how do I stop thinking? My mind went round with that for a bit, having as much fun as a dog trying to catch its tail. “Get into your body,” I told myself. So I closed my eyes, focused on my body, the warm water, and breathing deeply. My mind began to lose focus and wander off on some rambling exploration I don’t quite remember.

There’s something about trees….

jean — Mon, 01 Sep 2008 14:55:39 -0500

From September's Shaumbra Heartbeat

Sitting here looking out my office window at all the aspen, pine and spruce trees that are close enough to touch, I remember that without them I could not be here, for they create the oxygen that sustains me. They breathe so that I can breathe. In fact, I am breathing the oxygen created by trees thousands of miles away from me and I am grateful for the life they make possible.

Do you know that you are breathing life for those who follow? You are creating the essence – the New Energy oxygen – for their awakening, simply by going about your life, being who you are, and breathing for yourself. Those trees on the other side of the world don’t know I’m breathing the air they have enriched. They are simply being trees, standing tall, swaying with the wind, experiencing the weather, reaching deep into the earth, and offering their presence.

And so the end begins.. at the end of the beginning!

jean — Fri, 01 Aug 2008 14:44:33 -0500

From August's Shaumbra Heartbeat

Each of us have our own unique story of how we found our way to the Crimson Circle, how our heart made it back to this “family of choice.” Some of us have been here from the very beginning; some of us only months, weeks or even days. For myself, I discovered Tobias (by name) in the spring of 2002 when someone sent a channel to my brother and he passed it along to me. I’ll never forget how my heart opened when I read it. I had explored a lot of metaphysical things by then but that channel from Tobias went beyond anything else I’d ever read. It wasn’t about the information so much as the feeling of “I know this, this is HOME!”

As I devoured all the channels and came to know Tobias more clearly and consciously over the next few months, I recognized how his energy had been so near throughout my entire life. In fact, he has been there with every single one of us as we have found our way through this amazing lifetime – and that’s part of what makes this year, this moment, so deeply poignant.

A Day in the Life of Shaumbra

jean — Tue, 01 Jul 2008 14:43:40 -0500

From July's Shaumbra Heartbeat

It’s summer, at least in my part of the world, the weather is warm, the sun is shining and there is an air of rest and relaxation around town. People are busy, going about their lives and their jobs, but there is something about the warm summer days that brings a few more smiles and cheerful greetings.

Today I finished editing the latest Crimson Circle youtube video. Being very focused on the technical details and getting everything just so, I didn’t really allow myself to sink into the energy and feeling of it. But then, only minutes after it was completed, I realized that the energy packed into the message had been sort of piling up. And in that moment it washed over and filled me like a deep tidal wave. I just sat there with a silly grin on my face, feeling the reality that I call “being Shaumbra.” I could truly feel the impact that we are having on all of consciousness through the energy we are helping to create and bring in.

Why Lose Everything?

jean — Sun, 01 Jun 2008 14:42:45 -0500

From June's Shaumbra Heartbeat

Kuthumi told us a joke a while back: “A funny thing happened on the way to ascension. I lost everything!”

Well, I’ve heard some pretty funny things from him but I didn’t hear anyone laughing at that joke. What’s the point of some grand ascension if you have to lose everything that’s precious to you? If every hello becomes goodbye, and every treasure becomes baggage?

So many Shaumbra have lost so much – friends, lovers, children, possessions, homes, jobs – in fact just about everything that had previously defined them. I can personally attest that “losing everything” pretty much does mean everything. And yet, along the way I have also lost a few things I didn’t expect – doubt, hesitation, lack, old wounds, energy entanglements with others, fears within myself, confusion, concern about other’s opinions – and so many other limitations I’d been holding onto.

The Suction of Seduction

jean — Thu, 01 May 2008 14:41:08 -0500

From May's Shaumbra Heartbeat

During the last Shoud when Tobias was talking about seduction, I kept hearing and feeling the word “suction,” not only because they sound very similar but also because seduction has so much to do with the way things can pull and suck at you. When you move forward, the past can pull at you – whether a moment ago, a relationship ago, or a lifetime ago. When you expand and grow, the old limitations and ways of being can tend to pull you back into familiar patterns.

This is actually a natural effect. When you move your hand through water it causes turbulence and a type of suction as the water tries to fill in where the movement has disrupted its former equilibrium. By the same principle, consciousness movement and expansion creates the natural effect of suction/seduction as the energies around us seek to go back to their old balance.

Have you met someone who is familiar from long ago and found yourself falling into – or trying to recreate – the same old patterns? It’s not karma, it’s the seduction of “the good old days,” the inertia of the status quo, the resistance to change. Even the drama and pain of the world is so ingrained within itself that it seeks to keep its current state of imbalance rather than change and expand.

A New Day

jean — Tue, 01 Apr 2008 14:38:29 -0500

From April's Shaumbra Heartbeat

Dear Shaumbra, one of the most exciting and potentially far-reaching creations that the Crimson Circle has ever manifested is the Call to Awaken, a co-channeling by Tobias and the amazing musicians from our Quantum Leap Celebration, Amir and Gerhard. If you haven’t heard it yet, you are in for an incredible experience. As the name suggests, it is a message of awakening, first for Shaumbra and then for the world. It is a call that finds its way into the soul and triggers something that has been asleep for a very long time.

And yet… are YOU really ready to wake up? Do you jump out of bed and race into your day, or do you linger for a while, wishing for a few more minutes of sleep? When it’s time to wake up, how many of us would much rather crawl back under the covers, pull the blankets over our head and sleep for “just a little longer”?

Diving In

jean — Sat, 01 Mar 2008 14:37:08 -0600

From March's Shaumbra Heartbeat

Pondering this edition of Shaumbra Heartbeat, I found lots of seemingly disconnected ideas wandering though my mind. And every time I’d try to find the words it was like trying to grab onto a dream. Poof – gone! Aha, to write about the heart of Shaumbra one must dive in and feel the heart of Shaumbra! And here you are, around the world…

…gazing out on a snowy winter day… watching angel dust drifting through the trees… listening with every sense to the white silence that Gaia has wrapped around herself… and in that moment knowing the world is perfect.

…trembling at the choice that’s just been made, for it means a chapter in the book of your life is drawing to a close. A goodbye is forming that you never thought you’d say. And yet, through your determination and your tears, you see the new potentials already pressing in.

The magic and mystery of being Shaumbra…

jean — Fri, 01 Feb 2008 14:28:27 -0600

From February's Shaumbra Heartbeat

…seeing a baby looking at you over dad’s shoulder and whispering, heart to heart, “Welcome, you’re going to love it here, just don’t forget who you are!”

...hearing your name called out while you’re teetering on the edge of waking up, and knowing it’s YOU calling you home.

…getting surprised by a sudden glow of sunlight, stopping to really FEEL it for a moment, and suddenly feeling yourself expand beyond all boundaries of time and space. And you can’t explain the silly grin on your face the rest of the day.

…working up the nerve to say “I love you,” out loud, to yourself… and then feeling the overwhelming love that washes over you and makes you cry.